Day 23

Liz -

Today i've felt dreadful, I had a lovely walk with Lexi and my friend Sam this morning, but since then i've had 0 energy and just feel generally low. Maybe it's because i've been on my own all day and not done alot. Or maybe it's the stress of endless bits of paperwork to read through for the house purchase. Or is it because I didn't drink my water allowance yesterday, who knows.

I have however managed to stay on plan, however much i've thought about cheating today, I'm proud I haven't. I've thought about a chinese takeaway, my favourite pasta dish, chorizo, curry, crisps, biscuits - you name it I’ve thought about it. I think sometimes with me it's bordum that gets me thinking i'm hungry even if i'm not.

I've had a nice chilled time with Lexi though and she's been snuggly today at times which has been nice, Mike came home in time to watch the football so he's a happy boy today.

I'm off to work tonight and leaving Mike to his own devices to read his book alone (I'm sure he will enjoy some alone time, considering he's told me i'm in a fowl mood since he's been home!). I'm looking forward to sharing my veg curry with Dawn this evening, here's hoping she likes it! - she did like the stir fry so i'm sure she will enjoy this too.

Tomorrow is the start of a new working week so chin up, keep focused & I'm sure I will get through this. Only 5 more days at work then a week off to relax and enjoy a well earnt break for us both.

Mike -

Early wake up call this morning at 04:50 to go to work. Liz looked really peaceful and sleeping like an angel so i chose not to disturb her by saying goodbye. I think that upset her that i didn't kiss her goodbye so I want to say sorry to her. We had a lovely evening together and i enjoyed cuddles in bed. I know she doesn't really like me working Sundays as it means she is alone for a big part of the day. Maybe once i have a bit of money behind me i can stop doing them.

Work went well and whizzed by. I got loads done whilst i was there. I prepared my 2 shakes before we went to bed last night and they kept me going through the day. Seemed like the day was done so quickly and i was heading home. I got home and Liz seemed really tired and stressed out with reading reams and reams of paperwork. I am not the best person to be around when she is stressed. I have this way of making the situation worse even when i don't mean to. Unfortunately i am not very good in these situations and was of no help whatsoever with understanding what was needed from these documents.

I have the rest of the vegetable curry i prepared yesterday for dinner tonight and it's just me and Lexi while Liz goes to work. Another reason for not doing Sundays anymore at work is we literally get a couple of hours together today whereas our relationship was built during the national lockdown where we had pretty much all day every day together. We both want to earn money but we then miss each other when the other person isn't about. It does mean i get some reading time this evening but i would rather have her home with me.

Before i sign off i want Liz to know that i am immensely proud of her. I don't meant to annoy her or make things worse. She is the main reason i am doing this for our future. I know today hasn't been a good day for her but she is my rock. Keep up the hard work beautiful

Carpe Diem 4L