Day 40

Liz -

I woke up this morning feeling dreadful. I had a headache and I felt so tired - probably not helped by the 4:30am wake up call from Lexi as it was light and she thought she’d best make sure I wasn’t late for work. When I realised the time I soon sent her back off to bed, I wish sometimes dogs could tell the time, but then again Lexi can when it comes to 9:30pm (dentastick time!).

Once I’d had my first shake of the day and some water I started to feel a bit more alive. I cracked on with work and tried to keep myself busy and focused.

I‘ve had an extremely stressful day today and all I’ve wanted to do is eat, crisps, chocolate, pasta, cheese basically just binge eat to relieve the stress but I haven’t caved in and despite my whole body and kind telling me to do it I’ve stayed strong.

I cooked us a lovely Chinese mushroom curry with onions and peas this evening for dinner on a bed of bean sprouts. i must say it tasted just like a takeaway and I’ll be having it again for sure.

We then went out for a nice walk with Lexi, fresh air always helps when you‘re feeling stressed and this will help me sleep this evening (I hope!).

Today has by far been the worst day for me so far, I haven’t had Mike at home to support me and temptation has been there. I know we will have bad days at times but for me today has been an eye opener around how bad they can be.

Mike -

Woke up feeling like crap today. I have a sore throat and generally feel rubbish. I thought a shower would perk me up but no i still felt rubbish all day. Work went fine as usual with the odd stressful moment as the day went on. I only had the one shake before coming home. I kept saying to myself i need to make sure i have another shake at some point before going home but the opportunity never arose. With this in mind i was starving when i got home and Liz popped out to get the bits to make us a home made chinese style mushroom curry with bean sprouts. She did a mighty fine job of it to be fair to her. She tells me we have the same again tomorrow and already i am salivating at the prospect.

After dinner we took Lexi for a walk in the woods. I was still feeling pretty lousy and had a lot on my mind so i wasn't my usual talkative self. I am hoping that a good nights sleep will sort me out for tomorrow. I feel drained after today. We have so much going on outside of work at the moment although i have to say i don't have the urges to retreat to food that Liz is suffering with. All we have to keep telling ourselves is that everything will be ok in the end.

Carpe Diem 4L