Day 48

Mike -

Another routine day again today. Got myself and Jack ready and off we went with shake in hand. Dropped Jack off when fortunately the rain had stopped. It was pouring hard when I left and carried on raining pretty much all the way there. Jack was really excited to be going to school as it is p.e and forest school day. He certainly didn't come back in as good a mood but on to that later.

I went off to work and knew that i really need to kick on today and tomorrow to get everything i need to done before i go off on leave for the big move. I did manage to get a lot done today so tomorrow will be spent getting the last details done and dusted and hopefully head back to pack some more.

After work i went over and picked Jack up and he was literally caked in mud. I said to him what have you been up to and the T.A that bought him out to me said "it's called having fun Dad". Yes having fun is all part of growing up and being at school and i don't mind him coming out with mud all over his clothes but when it's all over his hands and face as well i did have to ask myself could you not have cleaned him up a bit or helped him to clean himself up a bit. I explained to Jack it was his last night at our current house and when we next have him we will be in our new house. Even though it was raining hard all day Jack was adamant that he wanted to play in the park after school even though it would be wet. Already covered head to toe in mud I decided it was pretty pointless arguing with him so he had about 45 minutes in the park. That was where Mr Hyde put in an appearance for the next 3 hours or so. Everything was a drama, everything we asked he did the opposite, he argued, he shouted, he swore, he punched, he kicked, he screamed. It's so frustrating because he can be such a loving and caring little boy but when he gets in the zone he is such a different animal. Liz managed to finally talk some sense in to him and calm him down after he was talking to himself and saying 'why do i keep doing these things'. It's so sad for him bless him. Before i would have retreated to a big bar of chocolate and probable a few alcoholic drinks to calm myself down. But not anymore.

We are starting our packing this evening and want to get as much done as we can over the next couple of days as we have a hectic weekend ahead. Just a gentle reminder to Liz now that no matter how lazy and annoying i can be i am super proud of her in everything she does (even though she is bossy) and i love her and always will.

Carpe Diem 4L

Liz -

Today I felt tired when I first got up, I did have a better nights sleep but I kept tossing and turning with the heat (even though we had the fan on). I had my first shake today at about 10am, I'd forgetten it first thing and then got into work before I felt hungry. For the frist time in a long time my stomach has rumbled today. I didn't feel hungry but my stomach kept telling me I was.

I had a good day with not much to report as it was another school day.

This evening Mike cooked dinner (Think he took the hint from yesterdays blog!) and it tasted edible. We have started packing this evening, we thought it was about time we did and have decided as well as changing our eating lifestyle and overall health we are also going to have a good clear out & get rid of a lot of our stuff we don't need / use to charity. We have had a good evening so far and I hope it continues - although football is on now so i've lost his focus for the evening.

Tomorrow is a half day at work for me, and final 1/2 day before I have a week off for the big move. We have everything sorted for this now, although not a lot of time to unpack the other end but i'm sure between us we will be fine.

With the stress of the move & bits at work someone said to me today they were surprised I hadn't yet reached for a bottle! I was surprised myself to be fair, but throughout this process I have learnt there are better ways of dealing with stress than I did before. So from now on when i'm stressed / tired, drink / food is not the answer, it's about sitting back and talking it through. I am pleased I haven't strayed from this journey and even more so I am proud of Michael for not straying (that I know of anyway!). 8 more days to go on phase one and then we move on to the next stage of our journey. Not long now until we find out if this has supported Mike's diabetes! Bring it on!